NeObliviscaris...Love Is Pain & Pain Is Love...NeObliviscaris

2005-09-14T08:50:00.000+08:00

Heyas...wads up man...hmmm...how yall' been...i've been good...hmmm...well shit been good at least for now...yupz...got some bad also la...but next time ya...lolz...hmmm...had a few good times lately...yeah...so where should i begin...it's like every wednesday i go...QUEENS...!!!...cause it's ladies nite & yall' guys know what dat means...hahas...&...every Friday it's...SPARKS...RUSH...M.O.S. ...cause it's techno...yeah...lolz...baik ah...lolz...hmmm...well feel damn bored now...so imma name my home boi's...lolz...i'm super lame...well here they are...

Awie
Ah Boy
Ah Soon
Ah Toy
Ang Eh
Ah Chick
Ah Loy
Ah Nan
Ah Yao
Alan
A.M.K.
BeBe
Benedict
Eefan
Elvin
Ah Joe
Jon
Norris
Wen Ning

Lolz...there they are...hahas...my homies for life...yeah...hmmm...btw...i think i got a job liao...i'm workin at siglap centre macs...fuckin' malu bodoh...hahas...i just hope no one will make fun or do ani stupid shit...hahas...hmmm...let me see wad else...oh ya...!!!...my 2 ex's wanted to patch wit me...but nah...dun wanna...yeah...hmmm...got a few girls in skool i wanna know man...damn bloody hot sia their asses and those hot thighs...hahas...dat sounded sick...lolz...i'm not kaes...!!!...hmmm...got one girl also i'm kinda interested in knowin'...pretty girl & looks decent...yupz...niwaes...well got to go now...going skool already...byes takkairs & god bless...love yall' man...!!!...

Yo Ar Yo...Sio Yi Hio...Wan Sui Gina...Sio Yi Hio...Kao Kong Kong Di...Pa Buay Toh...Yo ar Yo...Sio Yi Hio...!!!...

Sio Li Tit Toh...Sio Yi Hio...

Love Is Pain...
Pain Is Love...

2005-08-28T17:55:00.000+08:00

CHAPTER I:

Hey...It's been donkey's years since my last entry...lolz...yeah...sorrie...i bet no one can be bothered to read my blog...lolz...hmmm...niwaes...how yall' doin...hope yall fine...yeah...*sigh*...i've been shit lately...i've done alot of things i never dreamed of doing...i've seen things i dun wanna see...guess love can really change you alot...but i can only blame myself for my mistakes...she waited one year for me...i took the chance & i threw it away...you know i still remember the kiss you gave me at the library...we weren't actually together but yeah...maybe it'll be the last maybe it won't & i've only just realised what i did to you & what i did wrong...maybe it's too late for her to be mine...maybe there's still hope...who knows...only god knows...after all my closest friend's & cousin's have been tellin' me...like...give up campbell...give up billy...give up bill...you deserve better...you dun need to suffer like this...after what they have been sayin'...i still believe there's hope...i've got to thank...NIREJ...CALVIN...IRWIN...if not for them...i know it sounds damn dumb but i nearly wanted to kill myself cause of her...thanks for nva givin' up hope on me...i owe yall' loads...well...i still hear people tokin bout me in kc...some good & some bad...whateva they sayin'...i dun really care...niwaes did i say i was training wit the...Geylang United Football Club Centre Of Excellence Under-18's...lolz...just said it...hahas...

CHAPTER II:

It's me Again...lolz...Writin' a book...lolz...*lame*...hahas...niwaes...i still think bout her...sometimes before i sleep i cry for her love...i still hold your bear when i sleep...i still bring your bear whereva i go & wheneva i see a couple being happy and all...i'm happy for them that they last foreva...hopin that they dun turn out like me...i just really dun wanna give up on a love that made me what i was before...but...look at me now...what am i...?...you know...it's lik...i've been msgin her sometimes she dun reply...i've been callin' sometimes she dun answer...it's like callin back for my mother & nva hearin her voice...jus memories is all i see...worse part is...my grdma is going in for an operation...its bigger dan heart surgery...they say it might be cancer...i nva got the chance to say sorrie...to...her...my mum...my aunt...or...my uncle...for what wrong i did...i nva had the heart...only she can give me back what i've lost...but dan again...it's up to me...you know if my grdma nva makes it out...all i wish for is that i wasn't born...maybe i was a mistake...you know why...cause i bring in soo much fustration and pain in my family...hmmm...if i'm gone...the only thing i wish is that...she be present...at my wake or funeral...just give me a kiss on my forehead...and...tell me...that you love me & mean it...if not dan please give me a kiss on my forehead...maybe i'm askin too much...but...yeah...it's up to you...you know...i still stay true to my words that i'll alwaes be there for you no matter what happens...i'll alwaes love and care for you no matter what happens...and...even if i'm not in this world or not with you...and...if you miss or need me...jus close your eyes...and...i'll be there...my love and spirit will guide and protect you...i won't let no evil touch you...you'll alwaes be the shinin' star that will give me hope when i am down and out...well this is all for now...yupz...byes...takkairs...god bless yall'...

R.I.P. Attib Tahir Of Geylang United Football Club Centre Of Excellence Under-18...

My friend Taufik Of Geylang United Football Club Centre Of Excellence Under-18 Please Change Your Ways...You Have A Future To Make Not Destroy...

To All My Friends...Think Carefully Before Doing Anything...Cause You Can't Turn Back Time...But...You Can Change Your Future...As I Alwaes Like To Say...I Dun Believe In Fate I Make My Own Destiny...

To My Grdma...I'm Sorry For What I've Done To You And The Family...Please Forgive Me...

Hope Is Just A Word...Love Is Just A Word...Dun Just Stay There And Watch As People Family And Friends Make Sth Out Of their Lives...Become Who You Was Born To Be...

Could This Be The Start Of A New Beginning Or The Begiining Of The End

Lovin' You Alwaes...Carin' For You Alwaes...My Shining Star...*****...

Love Is Pain*Pain Is Love

2005-04-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

Hey...wad up yall...i'm boring...my blogs boring...damn...dun wanna say much...but...ya...boring...hmmm...heres a song...

O...Let me tell you girl
Oh...hey here I go, here I go

I know you heard me say it
Time and time again
That they would rock your world
And change your life
But I can’t blame them
Cause you make a nigga wanna get involved
Wanna get the drawers
Well I’m gone put my bid in
And get at you
No disrespect but I want it bad as they do
The only difference is
they look out for themselves
But I’m doin’ it just to hear you yell..yeah

[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...
In the night
You sayin’ O...
Means I was hittin it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...

Girl come on over and
Let’s get this thing crackin’
You’ll be surprised when
You see what O’s I’m packin’
Cause I’m young but I’m ready
Trynna get hot and heavy
Turn you out if you let me
yeah, yeah
Girl I’m gone take you
Somewhere that never been
Show you some things that
Make you wanna show your friends
Have you so weak that you
Can’t even say a thing
But that’s okay all you gotta say

[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...
In the night
You sayin’ O...
Means I was in it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...

O is for that overtime I’m puttin’ in
We’ll go for hours take a break
And go at in again
Girl I work my way from A
All the way to Z
But trust me baby girl
O is where you wanna be
Couldn’t believe me when I tell you
I’m not trynna tell you what to do
Cause when it’s said and done
The choice ain’t mine it’s really up to you
Just say yes don’t fix your mouth
To tell me no drop that bottom
Jaw for me and just say O...

[Chorus]
O...that’s gonna be the sound
Girl when it’s goin’ down
Your body sayin’ O...
Don’t have to say my name
Girl I’m just glad you came
So you can say O...
In the morning O...
In the night
You sayin’ O...
Means I was in it right O...
You can’t be mad at me
I’m just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O...

Let me hear you say
O, when I’m hittin’ it
Let me hear you say
O, when I’m gettin’ it
Ohh...
Let me hear you say
O, when you come see O
Let me hear you say
O, when you come from the back to the front
Now somebody say my name
Let me hear you say
O, when the sun goin’ down
Let me hear you say
O, when you can’t make another sound
Now scream
Baby girl let me hear me scream Oh...
Baby girl let me hear me scream Oh...

BILLY

2005-02-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

Wad up...peoples...hmmm...i'm training wit...GEYLANG UNITED FOOTBAL CLUB...man...haha...yeah...!!!...I LOVE YOU...SRI...!!!...alwaes yours ya...this song is going out to...yall' know who it is...yeah...!!!...

[KC]
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah

[Chorus - KC]
I am, the one you denied
Brushed off every time I tried, but I'm alright
I'm able to swallow my pride and put all the bullshit to the side
If you ready to ride, I'm down for a one night stand
I'll accept it any way that I can, 'cause I ain't your man
I'll try for whatever it's worth
Just remember who played who first
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
I can't keep my eyes off ya
I can tell why them other guys lost ya
Your kind's rarer than a flyin' saucer
And that's why I can offer, similarities in our characters
Haven't you heard the word 'round town? How I get down
They gon' whistle, everybody part is official
And that ass wit' you, got my dick as hard as a missile
Don't hop on top, 'cause I ride around with a pistol
If they pull us over, I'll be out of town with an issue
If you was mine, I'd introduce you to mama girl
You're stylin' in your boots and Gabbana, I'm so used to your Prada
I take trips cause out in Houston it's hotter
Throw in that Al Green and juice the Impala
Make my jewels and my collar
You had me feelin' like a fool when I hollered
Tryin' to squeeze in but you wouldn't bothered
Now I ain't neither, soon as I realized that I ain't need her
She in a rush to get close to me but I ain't eager
Shiit...

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
Look I don't mean to bother you
But your sex appeal is remarkable
You make a G wanna walk around in park with you
There ain't no tellin' the kind of things I'ma start to do
If I get wrapped up on your ass too fast
I could tell you feel the same 'cause when I asked you laughed
So I'ma leave it at that, take a hint and put in my math
I imagine, you probably look twice as good in the bath
And I'm buggin' 'cause I can see you right in the hood when I pass
I'm never stable 'cause business is on my ass
But you could be the one that I visit before I dash
And I admit, I've been the type to hit and split
But you can't blame me for the females that I been gettin' with
'Cause, most of these broads has had they eyes on my grit
To the eager shit, and learned to be satisfied with the dick
And, if you ain't worth it that's all you get
I ain't gon' blame you, I'm gon' blame all you tricks
'Cause...

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
It seems like your attitude, only appears when I'm mad at you
When several situations occur and that includes
When I'm gone too long, ridin' through them avenues
As soon as I get home there's rumors and scattered news
You know my fantasies, am I feelin' things or can this be
Your girlfriend tryin' to sandwich me
My heart's colder than sandwich meat
'Cause I, come from the hood where hammers be
I move fast with a switch pace
And pop a Listerine strip in, before you get all up in a bitch face
Movin' your body like this
Gon' make me blow like a bottle of Crist'
Man I don't know no one hotter than Twist
You got my temperature risin'
From your hips and your thighs and
And that glare in your eyes'll brighten up a horizon
It comes naturally, I don't bribe 'em
It's as easy as one, two, three and I slide in

[Chorus 2x]

[KC]
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, aw yeah

"---S&B---*

...HiP-HoP 4 LiFe...

2004-10-19T08:55:00.000+08:00

Fuck...all this shit...i hate it...man...fuck...always must pick on my...dad...baby...and...me...fuck them la...dun wanna give me money dun give la...fuck...chee bie...scold threaten do wadeva the fuck you want it dun matter no more...i was nva your family...nva eva...fuck off...now...must go look for job...aiya dunnoe la...hmmm...how i wish i could live wit my baby...i miss you...baby...FUCK MY SO CALLED FAMILY...

Missin' YoU...Alwaes Yours...*Hugs & Kisses*...

BILLY

2004-09-23T17:30:00.000+08:00

Heys...wassup man...i feel high...man...you know wad...imma dyin man...tryna lay my hands on those nice...AiR FoRcE OnEs...yupz...haha...gonna die man...i mus hav em' babies...haha...hmmm...i miss you soo much...BABY SALLY...hmmm...love you too...i aint nva gonna let u go...no matter wad...happens...hmmm...BABY...would u have my back...would u still love me...would u still care for me...if i got myself into deep shit...whether i was innocent or not...well...BABY...i hope you will... coz i dun wanna lose you...plz...dun leave me...I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU...haha...MuAcKs...haha...hmmm...well got nutin much o say...except...I WANT THOSE AIR FORCE ONES...!!!...&...

GEYLANG BOLEH...MAN U BOLEH...!!!...

GEYLANG (5)...PERAK (3)...GEYLANG GO TO SEMI FINALS...!!!

MAN U (2)...LIVERPOOL (1)...MAN U...ALL THE WAY...!!!

Haha...hmmm...well...gtg now...byes...takkairs...god bless...love yall' man...pray for me...man...haha...yupz...thx...!!!

Saliyana & Billy...4Eva...I Love You...Baby...Soo Muchie Much...MuAcKs...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...

BILLY

2004-09-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

Heys...hmmm...i dunnoe...wad to do...man...BABY SALLY...SWEETIE NADIA...HOMIE DEVIN...if your seein this...please...help me...man...i'm...lost...confused...hmmm...BABY SALIYANA...I MISS U...LOADS...wish u could be in my arms now...this song is for you...i love you...BABY...i'll alwaes will...

{Intro}
Ooh, yea yea
DTP, how we do
Call you and you can call me
Whatever you wanna do baby

{Chorus}
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my baby)
I'm only one call away
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my lady)
I'm only one call away

{Chingy}
It was weird how we met, huh
She was wit her mom in Bank America
I'm wit my son cashin the check
So I asked outta respect (uh)
Would she like to explore the world up high
We can fly in my jet
Her reply was Yes, can I ask you somethin'?
I seen it in her eye, mama lookin like all I wanted was sex
Then moved to the next (that ain't true) but it was something
about this girl's style that make me feel no regrets
We started off casual; walks through the park
Candle light dinners by dark, I'm thinkin smart (smart)
Afraid she might think I'm in a rush
To touch, crush and be up, but baby I ain't on that stuff
Dropped her off and told her call me up, we can talk
Conversate about political subjects whatever's sparks
So I zoomed off, lookin by and my phone rang
It was her in the shower, (she said) she said I couldn't do without ya
Then I said. . .

{Chorus}
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my baby)
I'm only one call away

{Chingy}
The next day I'm with the fellas at the cage playing ball
Here she comes wit her friends they posted up on the wall
Now I'm showing out, trynta dunk trynta dribble break fast
Through the middle just to see her smile and giggle
Game over I approched her wit a kiss on the cheek
The homeboys lookin at me sayin Lil Howard you weak
But you know how that go, what I got they want
What I got I flaunt, never mess wit it, please don't
Told her I'm going home she asked can she go too
I'm like Yeah boo, I can't see me without you
Got thurr, I took a shower jumped out she in the bed
With a see-through thong said I looked at her and said. . .

{Chorus}
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my baby)
I'm only one call away
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my lady)
I'm only one call away

{Chingy}
Girl recognize game, before game recognize you
You're dealin wit a player, true
Now whatchu wanna do?
We can kick it and go puff on a bluuunt
Oh you don't smoke? Grab a pint of Hen' then we can get druuunk
It's up to you, I'm the man but baby just let me know
Cuz if you got an attitude I could treat you just like a hoe
Get to rollin wit me baby, hop in there's enough room
We can gaze at the stars that shine like the moon
Gimme a chance to show ya, and a chance to know ya
Just be true, and there's nothing I won't do, for ya
Some women like to play it foul (foul)
But them the kind I put in the place of a child (child)
Don't worry be happy and smile and. . .

{Chorus}
(You, could, roll, wit, me)
Gimme a call if you wanna come roll with me
(If you was my baby)
I'm only one call away.....

Yeah...baby...that song's for you...i love you...dear...please dun leave me no matter wad happens...hmmm...i miss you is all i can say...and...i love you too...hmmm...well this is all for now...byes...takkairs...god bless...yall'...be strong...!!!

I Miss You...Saliyana...I Love You Too...Please Contact Me...I Love You...Take Good Care OF Yourself...Kaes...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...I Love You...

BILLY

2004-09-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hey...peoples...wassup...same same i guess...well...hmmm...went out yesterday wit my homies...hmmm...i go out everyday now...dun wanna stay at home...alwaes got fucked up shit problem...hmmm...now every morning i wake up at 5:30 jus to sen my...BABY_GIRL...to skool...yupz...yesterday i did that..dan came home bout 1+ 2...lik that...yupz...haha...well nadia...i guess u dun wanna read my blog no more...jus to let u know...i still read yours...i dunnoe hw else to say i'm sorrie...coz i really mean it...niwaes...I LOVE SALIYANA...haha...i miss her lik crazy sia...fuck shit man...!!!...haha...hmmm...my knee's are givin problems...fuck ballz...wrong time somemore...haha...got match tis sundae...a very big 1 too...argh...!!!...nvm...i will play my best...for you...BABY GIRL...hmmm...i feel so bored at home...haha...now im listening to tis ghetto station...damn cool...*BUMP BUMP BUMP*...haha...O...yesterday we watched...FACE...some shit lik that...fucked up...tot it was scary but not...but at least got meanin mus tink abit...haha...i was scared stiff...ballz...i dun lik these type of shows was holdin Loke and Ah Fat's hand...haha...fuckin shit ballz...haha...well got nutin much to say...except...I LOVE SALIYANA...haha...

Saliyana & Billy...Baby_Girl...I Miss You...Wishin U In My Arms Now...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...

BILLY

2004-08-29T15:25:00.001+08:00

Hey yall'...wassup...finally...i'm updating...haha...erm...yupz...so how yall' been...man...i'm been doing fine...got myself a new girl...i really hope shes the one...her name's...SALIYANA...shes jus soo cute and pretty...man...i love her...alwaes urz...ya...baby...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...hmmm...guess wad...VIKINGS ROCK...we won...SALVADOR...man...haha...3-2...we soo rock...now gotta face...KNOBUS...we're not gonna giv in...man...we gonna show em'...lik how we did wit...SALVADOR...haha...i also scored my first goal...for...VIKINGS...yupz...haha...hmmm...new playas' la...of course...!?!...

Keeper:
Abel (Taibi)

Defence:
Nigel (O'Shea)
Soli (Brown)
Arif (Ferdinand)
William (Neville)

Midfield:
Wesley (Giggs)
Iryan (Davids)
Wee Keat (Zidane)
Bryan (Hamann)
Ashley (Ronaldo)

Strikers:
Salid (Smith)

Well dats the team...the new team...yupz...stronger dan eva...hmmm...Saliyana i promise and swear i'll change for the better...i will not do anitin to jerpodise our relationship...eva again...i love u too much...i've lost my mum...&..i'm not gonna lose you...kaes...dear...hmmm...wad else...Nadia i dunnoe whether u still read my blog...but...i'm sorrie please giv me one last chance...please....i promise u...i'll change...please...well tis is all...i got to say...byes...takkairs...yall...homie's & shawty's...haha...

Saliyana & Billy...4eva...*HugS & KiSsEs*...Love You...Baby_Sally...

BILLY

2004-06-03T09:30:00.000+08:00

Hey peoples...sorrie yall'...long time nva post anitin...lazy la...haha...niwaes...how yall' been...good i suppose...same here...haha...yay...!!!...my team drew wit...ST.MARK'S...4-4...wasted la...my header...the keeper made a damn good save man...if not we would hav won 5-4...haha...but good game la i suppose...coz in the first game we lost 10-0...but we were controlling the first half of the game...our third match against...CORNERSTONES...damn tough game...playin against skillful playas...and got fitness...dunnoe whether our team can hold...tis game ah...i mus play...right-full back...if i was to..."shine"...haha...hmmm...i broke wit nadia...long time already dun wanna tok bout it...niwaes...i've got a new girl now...very few peoples know...so ya...tryin to keep on the low...damn man...need to lose weight...and build my stamina...on the double man...haha...o...i pierced my ears...2 on the left and 1 on the right...cool huh...!!!...lolz...haha...i wanted to drop my sponcership...from...DIADORA...but i tot again...now i got problem...wit my family...they gonna drop my sponcership wit...DIADORA...fuck em'...la...dun care 4 em' no more...well got nutin much to say...till next time...byes...takkairs...god bless...yall'...!!!

*&B...ALWAES...HOPEFULLY...YEAH...!!!...LOVE YA...LOADS...!!!

BILLY

2004-04-12T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hey yall'...wassup...life aint good...for me...as alwaes...-sighs-...me and me baby...are on hold 4 now...-sigh-...i'm finding it hard not to think of it...everywhere i go...i see a couple...holding hands,laughing,talkin,huggin and kissin...and dan you come up...in my mind...fuck ballz...lolz...the feeling is damn...dunnoe how to describe...-sigh-...all i can say...is that...i cant wait for june...or after the mid-years...so that i can finally see you...after a long 2 mths...i tink...-sigh-...aniwaes...baby...i jus want you know that...i wun let ani girl...get me...lik as if...ani girl wants me...!!!...lolz...or i fall for ani girl...coz my heart belongs to you...and onli you...no one else...wellz...life's fucked up...right now...dunnoe what to do...i'm kinda lost...dunnoe what to do...i'm playin in a league...in a league of...what...a league of...older men...who can play soccer...against a team...of young playas...named...dunnoe the name yet...!!!...wtf...!!!...nvm...we're are gonna make it to the quarter finals...our first year in the league...so what...we'll prove to those ppl...that we play...real soccer...I'LL FIGHT FOR EVERY BALL TILL THE FINAL WHISTLE GOES & FIGHT HARD I WILL NOT GIVIN ANI1 A CHANCE...I PROMISE I'LL SCORE GOALS...FOR YOU...N@D!@_B@BY...I PROMISE I WILL...well not to much of soccer shall we...but more of studies...mus study also kae...lolz...i mus get top 10...in class...i mus...i promise...i will...for nadia and my mum...i will...no matter what i mus do...i will do it...!!!...baby...you also...mus study hard kae...play hard work even harder...mus pass wit flyin colours...show em' wad u're made off...!!!wellz...i'm missin her lik crazy...hope i dun do anitin stupid...i was pissed yesterday...argued wit ashvin...fuck la...over...*YOU*...coz i missed you...i kinda took out shit on him...-sigh-...i'm sorrie...dawq...!!!...wellz got alot to say...but for another time...-sigh-...hmmm...o btw...i'm gonna go on a losing weight scheme...lolz...i really am...aniwaes...gtg now...lovin yall'...

I Miss You...*HuGs*...*KiSsEs*...I Miss You...

Holdin In There

BILLY

2004-03-31T17:10:00.000+08:00

Hey yall'...wads up...today was a good...day...-sigh-...1st ting 1st sorrie...bout the previous entry...i was fucked up dat day...but now...i'm ok...i hope day u r 2...baby...did u go patch up...wit liz...2dae...i hope you...did...i love you...*kisses*...today...went out wit...fur fur...lolz...went to macs...to go meet his...baby...AMANDA CHEN...lol...you rock on...man u 2...i'll be prayin 4 u 2...dan made 2 new friends...lol...erm...katerine & jonita...lol...sec 2...la...i tink...lol...haha...pai sei...!!!...still sick man...wth...lol...but i shld be able to play on friday...hmmm...i miss you soo much...you know dat baby...soo freakin much...i just wanna hold you tight rite now...and nva let go...-sigh-...you dun know wad u mean to me...man...lol...jk...baby...of course you...do...the whole world...more dan dat man...always yours baby...*kisses*...later maybe gong out wit ash...going parkway...to get *ahem*...someone's pressie...lol...haha...well niwaes gtg now...bye take care yall'...lovin yall'...

I Love You Baby...Missin' You...-sigh-...hope to see you soon...wanna spend time wit...you...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...

BILLY

2004-03-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

Hey yall'...how yall' doing...*crys*...i dunnoe wads going on...in my...life...not even...my own family understands...why and what i'm going...through...they dun...fuckin' love...me...i dun belong in tis family...not even...the world...*crys*...what to do i dunnoe...i've been cutting myself...tried to runaway...no 1 fuckin' cares...fuck...tis world...fuck it...*crys*...nadia_baby...please...tell me wad i've done wrong...i skipped tuition...2dae...coz i could not take it...was cryin...in skool...pushed around...scolded at...i cant fight back...coz i'm weak...i'm sick...coz of the cuts...*crys*...argued wit my family...again...i tink they hav had enuf...of me...i'm going to boys home...i dunnoe if u would still love...me...coz i'm really...madly...truly...deeply...in love wit you...*crys*...but after...you send me...the msg...i guess you would still...love me...i've got no 1 else to turn 2...except...you...baby...night after night...i'm cryin...away...tinkin...coz my grdma...does not like the idea...that we're 2gether...but other dan dat...everybody...is ok...wit...it...even...my dad...cant...do shit...i love you...baby...*crys*...baby...i'm gonna die...soon...if u dun...tok to me...u did not want to meet me 2dae...why...wanted to tok to you...no...u dun wanna...tok...fuck it...please dun do tis to me...baby...i dun get you...we seriously need to talk...bout wads going...on...i can tell...dat somethings bothering...you...baby...i can see it...through...you...DUN U FUCKIN' TINK...OF DOING IT...COZ IF U DO IT...I'LL DO IT TWICE...U KNOW WAD I'M TOKIN BOUT...u dun wanna hurt me...HURT US...rite...dan plz...for ur sake...dun do it...plz...dun...*crys*...i just pray to the lord...for a miricale...to happen...nadia...plz...i really need to tok wit you...face to face...plz...baby...i cant take it no more...*crys*...i love you...ok...baby...plz...i really do...i jus want you to be happy...not sad...cryin...angry...plz...i'm tryin to be all i can...be...in tis...world...for you...but at the same time takin it slow...*crys*...well...gtg...now...bye take care...yall'...lovin yall'...

I Love You...B@BY...PLz...Take Care...*CrYs*...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...

BILLY

2004-03-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

Hey yall'...wassup...-sigh-...my fucked up life just got...worse...i lost my sponcership...from...DIADORA...fuck la...now...on my own again...wad to do...i'm gonna fight on...till i succeed...man...for...N@D!@_B@BY...!!!aniwaes...today is my...anniversary...!!!...yay...!!!...2 months...lol...cant wait till...foreva...*MuAcKs*...love ya...baby...always yours ya...hmmm...today also ah...got...fight...lol...stupid la...you look at me i look at you...lol...stupid...went to study wit ash...todae...kinda boring but fun...lol...hmmm...well baby...i'm sorrie...if i made you...sad...angry...these past few days...you know i love you...rite...i alwaes will...no matter wad happens...oh...yall' know what...i was sleepin in class today...dan my baby appeared infront of me...scary sia...lik she scoldin me lik dat...coz i nva pay attention but sleep...lol...-sigh-...i'm very worried bout mi N@D!@...she sick....-sigh...let me giv u a kiss and hug...hehe...*HuGs & KiSsEs*...feelin better baby...!?!...aniwaes yall'...gtg...now...bye take care...yall'...lovin yall'...

I'm Alwaes Yours N@D!@_B@BY...*HuGS & KiSsEs*...

BILLY

2004-03-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hey yall'...my first entry...hahax...lol...L-A-M-E...aniwaes...wassup...yall'...-sighs-...today...was a fucked up day...i kinda "RAN AWAY" from home today...stupid la...got family shit...and...shit like that...argued wit my...MAMA...AUNT...&...UNCLE...but now...they all like...HEY YOU OKAY...DUN DO IT AGAIN KAE...bullshit...la...they all...i rather...go boys home...sia...or stay wit devin or ash...hmmm...but wait...hmmm...wait i go there...i'll be missin'...N@D!@...lik crazy...lol...dan she'll be lik crying...and i will too...wondering whether i'm okay...or...not okay...dun wan lei...better not...i'll just keep on...fighting...till the end...i've done it before...for...N@D!@...i'll do it again...for her...you know i love you...baby...i always will...*muacks*...well...today...got asked...to join...CATHO-LEAGUE...to represent my church...in soccer...dunnoe whether...should...i or not...all my friends say...i should...and u know what...i will...i'll give myself...1 last chance...i'll prove i can do it...show the world...what i'm capable...of...i'll do it...for you...N@D!@_B@BY...well...thanks...N@D!@...for helpin me...todae...i love you...B@BY...*muacks*...always yours...ya...*hugs*...well tis is all...bye...take care...yall'...lovin' yall'...

You Know I'm Alwaes Yours N@D!@_B@BY...

BILLY

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